Brad & Angelina Visit Wildlife Farm

# 222 | COLD HARD MATH ….oh my God….pardon me Lord….Shi had something to do with his brother’s accidental death??? CHM….my word….you are really talented and creative….my eyes are already dry and burning and now you make me weep….poor tobias and poor shiloh….i hope she is not full of guilt….it was an accident…..right….right??? can’t wait for the update….is it tomorrow???? he! he! he!

correction to my post :"did not mean to do it"

OMG CHM!!!! I have chills up and down my whole body - and tears coming out of my eyes! At first I thought she was going to ask for his room, but this O.O! Poor Shiloh! Poor Brad and Angie! You are one talented woman!

((((((((FANFIC ALERT))))))))PURE FICTION/ENTERTAINMENT ONLYOUT OF THE BLUE………cont……… Well, what Brad called the ‘transition’ was coming along quite smoothly. Construction workers, painters and the contractor, arrived every morning, at the Jolie Pitt House. Angelina and Bella both, e-mailed Zahara and told her what was going on, regarding Shiloh having to give up her room, for the new nursery. Zee suggested that Shiloh use her room. That’s where Shiloh took up temporary residence. When Shiloh first started using Zee’s room, she forgot how neat and organized she was. In a way, she felt like she was intruding. Her achievements were littered through out her room. Shiloh knew her big sister was special. Looking at her awards and achievements, she wasn’t the only one, that had the same thoughts.Bella really enjoyed helping Brad and Angelina with the nursery. She asked lots of questions. They looked at different designs, furniture, paint swatches, clothes, accessories and Bella’s favorite: toys. They were all trying to think of a theme for the nursery. They were trying to think of a theme, that would work for a boy or a girl. AJ of course, suggested a SPORTS theme. Bella suggested WINNIE THE POOH. Shiloh, really didin’t have an opinion on the subject. Brad oversaw all the work that was being done. Since Shiloh had to give up her room, Brad wanted to make sure that everything was done right, and on schedule. Jean Paul was more than happy to paint another mural. Shiloh could have the same one or she cold choose a brand new one.AJ and Bella were in the family room doing their homework. There was too much noise and activity, going on upstairs."Bella, Mom is getting so big." AJ said laughing."I know. I felt the baby kick, for the first time last week. It’s so surreal. It’s hard to believe sometimes, that there is this tiny little person, inside of her, now." Bella said smiling."I wonder how it was, when she was pregnant with the both of us." AJ asked. "She had to be huge.""I know there are pictures and home movies. We’ll ask her or Daddy, where they are at." Bella told him."Where what are at?" Shiloh asked, as she came into the family room. She sat down in a chair, across from the twins."Pictures and Home DVD movies." AJ told her."Pictures and DVD’S of what?" Shiloh asked her brother."Pictures and DVD’S, when Mom was pregnant me and AJ." Bella explained."Shi? Do you remember when Mom was pregnant with us? Was she huge?" AJ asked. He was really curious now.Shiloh thought for a minute. "I remember her being big. I also remember, I couldn’t understand how there were TWO babies, instead of just one." Shiloh told them. She opened one of her textbooks."****!" Shiloh looked up toward the ceiling. "It’s so ******* noisy up there. You think that knocking out one wall, wouldn’t be this loud.""All this noise is because of you." AJ told her.Shiloh looked at her brother. "Because of me? How in the hell, did you come up with that conclusion?""The noise is coming from your room." AJ pointed out..Bella looked at her brother and sister."AJ, Do I need to remind you, that I got kicked out of my room? The noise is coming from two of the guest rooms, that were forced upon me. A wall, is being knocked out, so all of my things will be able to fit in my new room. My room is now the baby’s nursery.""You do have a point there, you did get kicked out of your room." AJ told her. He had a ’**** eating grin’ on his face.Shiloh looked at her brother. "AJ, you don’t even want to go there.""What?" AJ was playing dumb. "You know Shi, I really think you are making a big deal, out of nothing.""Oh, really? I wonder how you would of felt if Mom and Dad asked you to give up your room." Shiloh asked.Bella did not like the way this conversation was going. "Come on guys, We are supposed to be doing our homework." Bella told them."Funny, neither of one of you volunteered to give up your room." Shiloh told the twins."Well, if they did asked me, I wouldn’t be acting like a baby." AJ told her.Shiloh looked hard at her brother. "AJ, You really don’t want to **** with me right now. I have two chapters of FRENCH to do get done. Alright?"AJ knew when his sister was not fooling around."Alright. ****. Lighten up some, Shi." AJ told her. He gathered up his things and left the room.Bella looked at her older sister."Shi? AJ didn’t mean anything. He was just giving you a hard time.""Bella? I really need to get this done, okay?" Shiloh told her."I know Zee’s not around. I know sometimes you think, I ‘m just a kid but if you need to talk, I’m right here." Bella told Shiloh. Ever since Mom and Daddy told them about the baby, she knew that Shiloh was having a hard time. When she was asked to give up her room, that sure didn’t help matters.Shiloh looked at her sister."Bella?""Yeah?""Thanks". Shiloh said smiling.Bella smiled back."Your welcome."~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Angelina couldn’t sleep. She tossed and turned. She was now lying on her back, staring at the ceiling. She cast a quick look over at Brad. He was sleeping so soundly. She hated to wake him up, but she need to talk to him. Angelina gently patted Brad’s shoulder."Brad? Are you sleeping?"Angelina nudged him a little harder."Brad? Baby? Are you sleeping?"Brad began to rub his eyes. He opened them, slowly. He was trying to focus."Brad? Are you awake?" Angelina asked.Brad stretched and looked at Angelina. "I’m awake now. What’s going on?" Brad looked at Angelina. "Are you okay? Is it the baby?" He asked with concern in his voice. He was fully awake now."No, Baby. It’s nothing like that. I’m fine. The baby’s fine. I just couldn’t sleep." Angelina told him.Brad sat up a little and turned around. "How come you can’t sleep?" He bean to gently rub her stomach."I was thinking about Holly." Angelina told him."Holly? Why were you thinking about her?" Brad asked. There was ga little confusion in his voice."The last time she visited us, she said some things about Shiloh, that I can’t get out of my mind." Angelina told him.Brad turned around and turned on the lamp, that was on his nightstand. "What kind of things?" He moved backed, closer to Angelina and started rubbung her stomach, again.Angelina looked at Brad. "About Shiloh’s feelings and attitude toward the baby. Where it may all be coming from."Brad loved Holly, like a sister. He valued her opinion. "What did she have to say?"Angelina paused a bit. "She talked about Tobias. She thinks that Shiloh, never really dealt with his death. Like the rest of us did. That she never really cried or grieved.""That’s bullshit. She grieved and she cried. Just like we all did." Brad told her." I’m beginning to think, that maybe she really didn’t. She was the only one that didn’t cry at the funeral. I thought we were the only one’s that noticed that. But Holly remembered. Brad, She is not a happy person right now. When I look into her eyes, I see so much pain. It scares me sometime."Brad remembered that day. Unfortunately, sometimes it felt like yesterday. That image of that small white casket beling lowered into the ground, would always haunt him."I remember. Baby, that was the worst day of my life. We were burying our son." Brad said in a soft voice."Baby, I know. That was the worst day in my life, too. When we all had to leave the cementery? We had to leave our little boy, behind." Tears were starting to form in Angelina’s eyes. "There isn’t a day that goes by, that I don’t think about him. What he would look like now? Would he still love the ocean?" Angelina laughed through her tears. "Would he still hate peas?"Brad didn’t say anything. Images of Tobias were running through his mind.Angelina continued on." We were going to adopt again, but that all changed, when he died. Shiloh and Tobias were so close. I think Holly is right. She was a little girl when we were all in therapy. Mad and Zee,they dealt with it. They asked questions, they talked about him, they cried. Shiloh never really did any of those things.""And you think with the new baby, old feelings that have been dormant for so long are trying to resurface?" Brad asked."Maybe. I don’t think she is jealous of the baby. Shiloh has never been the jealous type" Angelina sighed. "I don’t know. Maybe she is just being a teenager."Brad looked at his wife. "Do you really believe that?"Before she could answer, Angelina thought she heard something. "Did you hear that?""Hear what?" Brad asked."Sounds like someone is at the door." Angelina told him.It was AJ. He was knocking softly, on the door. "Mom, Dad? Are you awake? It’s me, AJ.""Just a minute" Brad said. Brad always slept in the nude. He got up out of bed and went into his walkin closet. He put on a pair of pajama bottoms and a t-shirt. He came back in the room and opened the door."What are you doing up this late?"AJ held up both of his hands. In one hand he had an apple, in the other one, he had some chocolate chip cookies. "I was hungry. I went down to the kitchen and got something to eat."AJ explained. He came inside their room.Angelina got up and put on her silk black robe."I thought you guys should know, Shiloh’s in the family room." AJ told them."Shiloh?" Angelina asked."Yeah. She’s watching a DVD, and I think she was crying."Brad looked at Angelina and then back at AJ.AJ paused a bit before he continued on. "She’s not watching a DVD MOVIE. She’s watching a HOME DVD MOVIE.""What do you mean?" Angelina asked."She’s watching a home movie of Tobias. I think it was one of his birthday parties." AJ told them.Angelina looked at Brad."Okay son. We’ll take care of. You go back to bed now."AJ looked at his parents. "Okay. Goodnight.""Night, honey. And Thank You." Angelina told him."Night son. Now I mean it, go back to bed." Brad told him.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Angelina and Brad went downstairs to the family room. There was Shiloh, curled up on the couch. Just like AJ told them, she was watching a HOME MOVIE DVD. She was watching Tobias’s last birthday party."Shiloh? What are doing down here honey?" Angelina asked. She turned on the light.Shiloh turned around. "****! You guys scared me. I couldn’t sleep, so I thought I would come down here." Shiloh pushed the STOP button on the remote control.Angelina walked over where Shiloh was sitting." Honey, What’s going on? Will you talk to us please?"Tears began to form in Shiloh’s eyes. "Nothing." Shiloh paused for a moment. "I just came down here to watch a DVD."Brad walked over and pulled an ottoman. He was sitting right in front of Shiloh and Angelina."Honey, We know your not happy right now. I wish you would talk to us." Brad said softly.Shiloh looked at her Mom and Dad. "I just wanted to hear him laugh again. I miss him so much." Tears began to roll down her face.Angelina took Shiloh into her arms. "I know baby, we miss him too. We understand how you feel"Suddenly Shiloh, broke away from her Mom. She tried to get away, but Brad was too quick for her. He grabbed her from behind and held her tightly and tenderly against his chest."No you don’t! You don’t understand!" Shiloh was beginning to cry."Yes we do.Talk to me honey, Please?" Brad whispered. He held her close and tight.Shiloh could no longer hide, what she had been feeling for years."Mommy, you were inside. Daddy you were at the studio. I told him it was time to go inside the house. But he kept saying, One more tiime Shi, One more time. Kick it here. Kick it to me. I’ll catch it. I’ll catch it. Please Shi? And I kicked it again. I kicked the ball again." Shiloh said. She was in hyterics. She could not stop crying" I KICKED THE ******* BALL! I KICKED THE ******* BALL! Why did I kick it? Why didn’t we just go inside the house?"Angelina looked at Brad and then back at Shiloh. She was crying too."Oh God Toby, I ‘m so sorry. I didn’t mean to do it. I’m so sorry Toby. Mommy, I’m sorry. Daddy, don’t be mad at me. I didn’t mean too. He ran after it. I yelled his name, it happened so fast. He loved to play with that ball. I was just trying to play with him. WE SHOULD WENT INTO THE ******* HOUSE! He would be alive right now, if we just would of went inside the house. But I kicked it again. I kicked it again……….."All the pain and all the guilt just spilled out.Angelina took Shiloh back into her arms. "Oh honey, Oh baby, It’s okay. Shhhhh I’m right here. You didn’t do anything wrong. It was a horrible, terrible accident. You poor thing. My little baby……." She rocked Shiloh in her arms. Shiloh held on to her mother, like she never did before. Angelina looked at Brad he had tears running down his face. He got up and sat down by Angelina and Shiloh. He held his daughter and his wife.Shiloh looked at both of her parents."Why didn’t I run after it ? I should of ran after the ball. Why am I still alive? WHY AM I STILL ******* ALIVE?"She buried her face into Brad’s shoulder."Oh baby don’t say that. Don’t ever say that again. We could of lost both of you, that day. We’re going to get you some help. It’s going to be okay. I promise you, everything will be okay." Brad said to her in a soft voice, at the same time, he couldn’t take his eys off of Angelina.TO BE CONT….

CHM - ((((SNIFFLES AND TEARS) what are you doing to me CHM, OMG that was so emotional, poor poor Shi, she is carrying so much guilt inside her for all this time, for something that was a terrible accident,it wasn’t her fault. I am glad that Brad and Angie found out, now they can get her the help that she needs; and kudos to Brad and Angelina for being so wonderful parents.

CHM-~~~~OMG! You have me crying! No one can do that! Very powerful CHM. It’s sad that Shi feels guilty about the accident. Tobias is in heaven and happy and thriving. Please update soon, but maybe not today. This one will keep in tears all day.Thank You sooo much girl!

CHM- Two amazing emotional chapters, I’m so glad that you post all your chapters here, now I can read them all over again, uninterrupted. You are an amazing writer and an amazing person, IMO, you’ve let us gleems into the future of our favorite family, through love, laughter and pain. (((((((((((((bravo)))))))))))). .

CHM That was awesome. I have been following this story religiously and I say this is the most emotional of all. i love the way Brad held her so tight and made her feel that she is not alone. That was priceless! I hope her character will have a special moment with her mother. They felt distant from the very start of this story. Gee, you really know how to make a beautiful story. Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHM that was awesome!!! Thank you! Soooooo looking forward to the next chapter! Hope you are going all the way to the birth of the new baby.

Thanks CHM!!!I always love your story, it’s wonderful!

CHM….you are really a very talented contemporary writer….i have tears on my eyes reading this chapter….poor poor shiloh….so full of guilt….likewise, i hope that you will continue with this story until the baby is born…..the baby of the family…s/he will be so spoiled coz of older siblings….lol….thanks CHM for entertaining us and sharing with us the result of your creative juice….:-)

# 233 | COLD HARD MATH |omg, my eyes are so watery right now. Sniff sniff ..thanks CHM for opening up Shiloh’s [deeply hidden] feelings to her ‘rents.