Drew Barrymore & Justin Long: Bonnaroo Bunch

You know the world is actually more full of colour, since you don’t matter anymore. Don’t kid yourself about that either. If it was ever grey, it was because of you.

‘MIDNIGHT TRAIN TO GEORGIA - GLADYS KNIGHT’ was a lovely sentiment back when there might have been real love there and you weren’t always being a jerk about your bf and both of us knew I’d never take you up on it. Except I might have asked you if you wanted to take a road trip….maybe in Mexico…and we would drink Coronas and visit lost beaches with real huts on them…and then I would have sent you back….But it would have been fun.

Now leave me be ’cause it isn’t going to happen. I’ll be singing and dancing with tight pants on (not for my supper) and kissing chicks who aren’t you. I’ll miss the good and lovely things about you and regret that I never got to do those kind of neat things with you, but I really won’t miss the heartaches and I know…you’ll be having the love of your life with Justin. Got the message. Vaya con dios chichita.

Carol, huh? I’ll seriously think about your advice ‘Carol’. Here’s a song for you by Chuck Berry.
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‘Oh Carol, don’t let him steal your heart away
I’m gonna learn to dance if it takes me all night and day

And if you wanna hear some music like the boys are playin’
Hold tight, pat your foot, don’t let ‘em carry it away
Don’t let the heat overcome you when they play so loud
Oh, don’t the music intrigue you when they get a crowd
You can’t dance, I know you wish you could
I got my eyes on you baby, ’cause you dance so good

Oh Carol, don’t let him steal your heart away
I’m gonna learn to dance if it takes me all night and day’
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But I’m going to go out and have a life too…I’m not going to be sitting around my house by myself anymore, so you can say later….”look who’s alone now, it’s not me.” Those wisemen are a pain my naglas and so is …’Run to You’ by Bryan Adams…You’re still pulling that old piece of stale cheese out of your pocket. Must be pretty smelly in your pocket by now :)

I’m pretty intelligent? That’s a switch from ‘You’re dumb’.

Reading between the lines it’s actually…’You’re dumb’ for not doing what I want you to…”and wasting the chance that I’d been a-given…so i’m never gonna dance again…the way i danced with you…hooo…ohhh.” Sorry…got carried away a little bit.

Why does love have to involve somebody sleeping in the rain? Because I was a schmuck and I’m late?

I’m sorry but I really can’t do the living in the pubic eye thing. I wasn’t joking about that. ‘How fu@!ing dare you? You can’t fu@king talk to me like that?’

You know deep down, something that’s healing feels better than alienation, no matter how it happens. If you really want to go out with me, once I’m over there, ask me out properly.

You won’t really know how you feel or what you want until you’ve spent some time with me either way. But none of it will matter if I never get there.

Do you really love me? Then let go of my heart just a little bit. Doesn’t have to be all the way…just a tad. I’ll be able to be stronger. Rather than trying to control me through manipulation, you could just get me really wanting to go your way.

Maybe ‘Jessie’s Girl’ should be with Jessie.

Healthy relationship with someone who isn’t my mother like now…you shouldn’t have gone there. Why Drew? Ahhh. No…Now I’m definitely going out with someone. ASAP.

Damn it.

Celine Dion - ‘If There Was Any Other Way’?
Why are you still doing this?
You don’t really want me in your life do you? Just when I think maybe I understand you, then I realize I don’t at all and it just makes me tired, that I’m always struggling trying to figure you out.

We have this unhealthy dynamic that I want to try to fix. That’s all I’m trying to say.

I want you and I need you. My life would never be the same without you in it.

But we can’t even talk to each other and sooner or later things always seem to break down.

It’s enough just thinking about trying to do something really hard without pressures about romantic committments that don’t feel right.
And I know, you always have your go-to-guy when I haven’t said what you wanted to hear or done what you wanted quick or well enough.

Is that the way we’re going to get closer?

I like that you push me, but you don’t have to. You push me to be better than I knew I could be. I’m going to start getting verklempt at work. You see things in me I didn’t know were there.

I look you up the way you look me up. You”ve been bugging my house for how long now? You’ve been having me followed…reading my emails? Does it go that far?

I look you up on the internet. Not always b/c I’m feeling jealous…in fact it’s not usually that. It’s sometimes b/c if I see a picture of you and you’re looking happy and like things are alright, then…it makes it easier to go on, you know? Even though we’re in different places.

Why do you do it? Are you always looking for clues with distrust or is it something else?

For now, I have that and these songs you leave me with, which especially when you are trying to hurt me can be lonely. It’s been that way for years. You don’t understand that?

Is he ‘the one for you’ or just ‘the one you use to make me jealous’?

I think that’s a fair question.

We both know that what you were saying up there as ‘Carol’ is absolutely true, whether we’re a couple or not. You’re my first love. Nothing will ever change that. Even if we were never in each other’s lives, no one would ever take your spot. You’ll always be there.

I won’t go unless you really want me to.